OCS

sumtime i juz tink tt wat if i haf pass my FFI for command sch, wher would i b? hw i wish im in ocs nw waiting to b commission... i hate myself for being indecisive al times... a part of mi r cryin for OCS yet another part of mi r wryin whether OCS would b too much for mi... sumtime whenever my decision dun go my way, i would feel reali bad... feel tt whenevr i mk a decision its owis a failure... y? haiz... i wana be a successful man!!!!!